so. we are still here. we've just been getting our butts kicked. in the breast feeding and pumping department. and the baby weight gain department. and the baby sleepiness department. and the mom (aka me) crying a lot department. but we (anika, grandma, h-kun and i) have been kicking back. and our efforts are paying off. and everyday things get a little better. though i need to be reminded of this constantly.
it's funny. or not so funny. but i am realizing that most moms struggle in the first month of thier little one's life. i don't remember hearing these stories. i just remember hearing labour stories. and honestly. my labour went really well. i was induced 3 weeks before anika's due date, which kind of shocked me. but other than that. things went smoothly. and quickly. but now. that is a whole different story.
what i do know is. that i am in love with little anika. and she gets more adorable each day. i also know. that without h-kun and grandma's around the clock help that i couldn't continue with what the routines and schedules that we have to continue to follow. i also know. that without the emotional support of family, friends and some special blog friends that i would be struggling even more.
some days are better than others. i need to keep trying to not focus on tomorrow. and i need to fight the worry and fear that tr to bombard my thoughts. i need to focus on today. and how things have improved today. and celebrate that. and my loved ones are great at reminding me of this.
i need some help. from you. i am trying to think of some way to document the growth of my little one. using photos. i love this series. and i have another idea or two brewing. but i am hoping that some of you can share what you have done. or seen. that is awesome. because anika is awesome.
i hope you have a merry christmas. and the most enjoyable holiday season ever!